I’ve always been shy about my singing abilities… growing up with an eldest sister who is an opera trained singer and a musical family in general… I never really felt that secure to share my voice. Riley is probably one of the few friends (if any others at all) who has heard me sing, and she says I have a gorgeous voice that I shouldn’t hide… but singing to me makes me vulnerable because when I sing my soul pores out of me… Until really this past year, I tried to hide all my vulnerability… now that I have torn that wall down though and all my friends realize how vulnerable and insecure of a person I am you would think I would be able to sing more with them around… but I still find that I cannot.
But anyway… I was watching the movie Australia the other evening and Nullah’s aboriginal phrase “I sing you to me” which he tells “Mrs. Boss” when he is taken away to live in the missions and then when he goes on his walkabout… really struck me. Especially when Mrs. Boss (Nichole Kidman) replies back “And I will hear you my darling.”
Maybe I should be singing more…
I keep having very personal songs pop in my head…a lot about God’s love… maybe in order to get closer to God I need to “sing Him to me” so that He can hear me and find me.
Maybe I need to embrace my voice, so that I can be found by the one who has spoken for me and loves me for always.