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Liar, Liar, I finally saw your pants on fire…

I’ve been really good about “Fred” since the last time I posted about him… but for some reason he is really on my mind today…

I think it was because in church today the sermon was about “moving on” and several times he stressed having to move on from relationships…

This whole entire time I’ve been under the delusion that Fred and I just didn’t understand each other… that somehow we were just on different wave lengths constantly…

He treated me horribly… abusively… but I never caught him in an act that was tangible… after all he abused me… but he never hit me… it could have been all in my mind…

While thinking today… something compelled me to try to prove his innocence again or perhaps his guiltiness.. not sure which…

Remember how he at one point somehow got his hands on a marriage certificate for us? I mean I knew it couldn’t be legit b/c I wasn’t there to get the marriage certificate and you have to sign things and show your IDs so that they can ensure you aren’t related…

But I somehow convinced myself that maybe he found a loop hole around it and that the marriage certificate was real…at least real in the church…

Well… all i did was type in “Marriage certificate” into google images… and this appears…

The picture he sent me via text of our marriage certificate that he apparently “mailed” somewhere… is exactly the same except with the names of who is being married, dates, and city changed… but the “witness signatures” and the person who supposedly declared us married is exactly the same… absolutely the same…

Like right now i’m trying to convince myself that I don’t know mormon rules (apparently this is a mormon certificate)… perhaps all the marriage certificates they give are signed by the same people? But I’ve googled others… and this is the only mormon marriage certificate that I have found signed by these people…

I finally have my hard evidence that he was just an f-ing manipulator… wanting me only for sex… who on earth does something like this to someone else?

This means i can let him go now right…

Please God… please help me let him completely go…

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Posted by on November 3, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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Friendships

So one of my best friends (I’ll call her Sarah) is getting married in less than 9 hours. I am doing last minute wedding things while the Bride gets her beauty sleep.

I’m currently working on my toast for the reception… and it has made me think a lot about our friendship and my friendships with my other best and close friends.

I’ve realized that I have no idea what any of their favorite colors are, the first boy or girl they kissed, their favorite music band, or even what foods they love and hate.

But knowing things like that are material.

I’ve known Sarah for 6 years. I knew her favorite color was purple, but no idea it was tied with red. I had no idea (until I asked her) that her first kiss was with a boy named Kyle or that she had a huge thing still for the Backstreet boys. I knew that she loved dark chocolate… but I had no idea that one of her all time favorite foods was graham crackers.

But the thing is I KNOW Sarah. I know how to make her laugh. I know how to calm her down when she is upset. I know how to have an amazing time with her. I know all about her family drama and how much it effects her. I know her body language and what she is trying to convey to me that she has a hard time conveying in words, such as how hurt she is by recent drama with her family right before the wedding.

I know how her mind works. I know the kind and gentle hearted person that she is. I know she will always get me into trouble…but will be right there getting me out as well.

Does it make me a bad person that I didn’t know all those materialistic things about her? Or my other friends? I don’t know.

I think it is more important to just be able to feel safe, loved, and trusted by your friends. I think you can KNOW someone without having to know who their first kiss was with or their favorite color.

Maybe I am wrong?

But I do know I love her to death and I am so happy she has met someone to spend the rest of her life with. 🙂

 
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Posted by on July 14, 2012 in Uncategorized

 

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