So apparently I am naïve. At least according to a specific individual I was speaking with today about my dreams of the future.
I don’t know them very well… so it was hard to correct them, because I didn’t want to reveal much about myself to them.
But anyways here is the conversation. It is easier just to lay it out then to try to describe:
Me: My greatest desire is that I will eventually change the world for the better. Even if it is just changing the world in the smallest sense or just changing one person’s personal world.
Acquaintance: How will you change it though? That is a broad statement.
Me: By showing people that love and light always win and that there is good in everyone. I want to ensure that no one ever has to go hungry and that everyone who wants help can access it. I have no desire to have materialistic things but I would love to have money to give to communities to grow and ensure no one is forgotten and everyone is cared for. I haven’t figured out how to do it yet, but I’m working on it.
Acquaintance: People are poor because of the decisions they make.. There’s no helping them. A small percentage actually needs help because they’re actually in need. I think you’re a bit naive.
Me: Are you aware that over 50% of the people on the streets have mental disorders? They need help. And I have been to third world countries, I am very well aware of what poverty is and how they need help.
Acquaintance: Why are you worried about third world countries? We have enough issues in our country. You’re fighting a losing battle.
Me: Just b/c the battle is hard and most likely not going to succeed doesn’t make it any less worthy to be apart of that fight. And yes I’m worried about the problems in our country as well as the third world which is why I do the most I can to help both, but I have to say even the poorest here look like kings there.
Acquaintance: I understand and that’s great… But you are 1 person
Me: And one person can change the world. Too think otherwise makes living life pointless.
Acquaintance: One person can’t change a nation. I agree with you, but this whole nation is trillions in debt
Me: MLK Jr. sure did change our nation… sure we still have problems of inequality and racism on all sides, but he changed our world in one aspect. If we had several people who cared about others as much as he did we could fix our nation… No it won’t happen over night but it can over several generations
Acquaintance: Generations you won’t be around to see
Me: But generations my nieces and nephews and perhaps offspring will be apart of… it is selfish not to think of the future
Acquaintance: Yeah… but can you guarantee your family will care as much as you do? Highly unlikely.
Me: My family may not but there will be someone somewhere in the world who will care as much as me… Even if I’m just a small influence for that person, it would be worth it.
Am I wrong to want to change the world? Am I naive? Should I just be living this life in order to get by? To ensure I have tons of money and can have my heart’s desire?
But I can’t live like that… I can’t live pretending that there aren’t 7 billion other people in this world.
I basically died last year. No, not physically… but I mentally, emotionally, and spiritually died… if I can do anything… anything at all in this world to ensure someone else doesn’t have to go through that… to get the word out that there is something called OCD (and mental disorders in general) and you can free yourself from it… then I will know that my life had meaning and that the world changed… even just a little bit for one specific person.
If wanting to change the world is naive… then I am happy to say that I am naive… that I want to be naive… bc what reason would I have to get up in the morning everyday?
I refuse to be an individual who just looks at the world and shakes their head in disgust at it. Refusing to help it… just living their life for their own reasons.
If more people were naive like me then maybe this world would change as we collectively stood together.